Champagne Bubbles

They found their happiness
Somehow they did
In a weird unexpected way
In a place no one had imagined
With a people no one else would accept

They found their happiness
Like slender tall glasses full of golden champagne
Their laughter bubbles over
Always

Oh how happy they've become
Yoga poses and wine racks brim full
An alien life now embraced
They found happiness, and it was their own.


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VAPOUR-BENDER

Melt. . . Melt into this beautiful fragrance I intricately weave around you, rose by petal peals, because you my love are deserving of my essence.

1/6/15

No Tomorrow

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What if all I had was right now
And my body cried out "healing!"
~
Would you reach out for me
Then touch me
Tracing the intricate veins of my frail form?
~
Then hold me like there's no tomorrow
Hugging me so tight that all my broken pieces are bound to fit back in place?
~
Because what if there was no tomorrow,
Could you love me like there was no tomorrow? --

Paper Tables

Take,
Let us keep this lines plastered on our face
Turn yours all the way up
Mine will dangle free
They would see us, and assume we are happy.

#happypeople #feignedperfection

Box

Box•

And so she took me to a room
Of long narrow length
Then she gave me a cloak
"Put it on" she said, almost like a command
"Now dance with it"

I began to do the tango --- "No! Do the waltz"
Then she tossed me a Siberian partner

I couldn't even understand the language of his lead
But I was given no options
I dare not open my lips a crack
Just do the motions
Oh woe betide me that I try to make my speech

I was to dance this dance, on this long narrow length
Until the bell went off and I should go home.

Box•

How 'bout We

How 'bout we start
Living life all purposefully
Like there was something we living for
And this moment and that, needed a count?

How 'bout we stop
'Cause finally we've got tired
Of our old tired routines of nothings
Sleeping away our hours like they don't count?

How 'bout we start
Counting the reasons we breathe
And why each dawn breaks before our shut lids
'Cause HE cares enough to give us second second chances to finally get it right,
To breathe again, Again... How 'bout we?

Give Me Your Forever

❤❤❤
Give me your forever
Your forever in this moment.

As your hand lingers on my waist
I feel the craving of your soul
Unspoken words sketch the rhythm of your heart beat
I feel your desire-
Your forever in this moment.

The noise of the crowd fades
Our hearts whisper an intensely sweet melody
that forces our body to waltz in slow motion-
In the forever of this moment.

One step, two step
My feet obediently follow your dreams -whatever they be
The melody of our hearts melts our bodies into one
As we dance into forever
I'm drunken with desire
for a forever as enticing as you.

Give me your forever my love
As I place my forever in the palm of your strong hand.
❤❤❤

Awkward ¿~¤《¡♤

Biggest dislikes; Awkward moments . . .

Like I'm convicted
No, more like conflicted
Not knowing what to do with myself
How to even keep my leg

I trace the pattern on my phone that should take me to something familiar
Trace - untrace - trace --- Over and again
Familiar yet uncomforting
I don't know what to do with myself
Or how to even keep my leg

"Excuse me lady"

An unfamiliar voice trails me back...

Oh yes, my biggest dislikes; Awkward moments

I have a conversation with myself in my mind
Not knowing what to do with myself is making me feel so off, so off out of myself

I prop myself to my feet
I should look around
Dry off the(se) beads of sweat that hopefully only my mind can see

I plaster a fake not fake welcoming smile on my face

"What are you trying to organize? Perhaps I can assit?"
I ask the pretty peacock that saunterd into the room only moments after me

I'm dancing the peacock's dance, keeping my feet to the ground

Living out of this moment
Just for a while

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1:12pm 40216

Scarlet Letters

Dear red box,

You are the beginning.

My pen just stopped writing, and it's affecting my brain
It's a labyrinth. I can see corners. It's a haze
Pain, pain. Blooded pain.

Tears and rain
Fears and pain
I'll spew you out, I have patronized you too long. I'm patriotic but not this time
I've packed my bags, called the moving van. I'm moving out of your town.

                                                  * * *
I picked up a pad, you know, the one we got that friday evening after you picked me up from work. I smiled and waved it in your direction. It was going to bear my gains...
Purple, yellow, flower, green. Sticks and stones, a dog, a bone
This book is recording my pain
That pain in my gut...
I shake my head, tendrils fall. I can't shake you off
I spit out the window. The bitter taste remains
My tears dignify your existence.

Dew, cock crow, sunshine and moon
Pain, pain. Blooded pain
Cloud, lightning, thunder and rain
Pain, pain. Blooded pain
A cool breeze, before the wind that brought about the storm that rocked the boat
You don't deserve this!

You are the beginning, and you are the end!

Tears and pain
Fears and rain
Wash away...
Unashamed.

Goodnight To Love

The sound of my heart: like the beat of a festival drum
Like half a dozen mommy elephants stomping the yard
It aches and it tickles
It's awkward
It's the way loneliness feels.

My heart now feels the chill of the night
The cloak is gone
Half a swans neck
I stand alone.

Incoherent thumping
I know this feeling
I remember it from 5months ago
Wow, has it been just 5months?
When broken promises had pricked my heart
And with gentle kisses you tried to heal it.

*sigh*
Dang. I'm  rambling
Did I think this would be my style only 5months after?
Oooh lolu see what you have turned me into?
I'm now like the village town crier
Playing this gong in my heart
Because no one else must hear of my misery
They all warned me of the timing uno
"isn't it too soon?" Tolani had asked me, her voice pregnant with concern
But I was sure of this one this time around. I had assured her.

Oh Tolani, come and hold my hand
Give me your shoulder lemme cry on
Cry with me, this pain is heavy for my heart alone

"Heart aches, how my heart aches" the song is on replay in my head
I yearn for our "happy days"

*unstable heart beats*

I guess the night has come for us Lolu
And it's time for me to say goodnight.

Goodnight, Lolu. 😣

Woe Betide Me

Woe betide me!

That I open my mouth n call you a filthy pig
Even though at midnight, while I lay still with my eyes shut (or so you thought)
You creeped out of bed like a thief in the night
Your act in stealth perfected
You open her door just a creek like an alarm
She laying there, awaiting

This had become a custom
You, her, every other night, when you fools thought me asleep
Those other nights, I had wondered why you stayed so long in the bathroom
Why you stayed so long in the kitchen
Why you stayed so long in the living room
And then I had drifted back to sleep, like an overworked woman needing "these hours of sleep"

Woe betide me
That I call you and your harlot "the devils angels"
When every other night, I put down your longing and desire for my juices
And let you alone while you lay stiff hungry
Because I was the overworked breadwinner who needed "these hours of sleep"

#BrownGirl

When I was a girl,
I wore a thousand lives
In and out of searching for the thing that makes me feel alright
Ten black moments in my room
Diamond shimmers from the moon

Ten different shades of "I love you"
Then I was the girl you would woo

Ten golden rings like the sun
"oh he really loves me" I coulda sworn

Ten soft forehead kisses one day
Then the other, me. Alone. In a corner. Mourning in misery.


Now I'm a grown girl.
Pretty in my skin
Scrolls and chapters of this life that has become mine
Drops of crystal rain on my skin
Because rather than sit in wait for the storm to be over
I learned to sing and dance in the rain.

The Girl and Her Lover

Cast
The Girl: Pauline Ezeka
Her Lover: The Father


Some days it's seems I'm there...
Other days it seems I'm not
Yet in those days i feel like I'm not there, that's when I know even more that You are there. How do I know this?
I hear your voice... its calm and sweet, strong and reassuring... You remind me of many things, most importantly, of who I am in You. That's the moment You stay... You say I'm going no where, I can't leave you. 
Oh yes! I know You're there with me... I find comfort in the richness of Your voice against my ear as I find rest and safety in Your arms

Oh Father! how good it feels to be wrapped in Your arms, it's almost like resting against a super soft pillow or lying on silk and being covered with a feathery comforter... I wish I had the right words! I'm so enthralled by You!

Father, I'm so in love with You, it brings tears to my eyes each time I reveal my heart beat. what am I without You? Is life worth living without You? absolutely not! You are hope, You are life, You are love... it's true I can never get round it, or climb it, or dive into it or run farther to it... it's surpassing... it's intoxicating! I love You Father! my eyes gush torrents and my nose run, my voice changes in pitch, my fingers freeze, sometimes itch, my heart is strong, knowing this is true. 

I awake with the dawn, You are first on my mind... Your name is quick on my lips... Jehovah, Abba'm, I call You... with the clouds shifting, Your Mighty hands open up the curtains to see the face of the one who calls... It is me Father, it is me who calls... Oh but You know that already, just like You know everything else! I just always love to see the routine... it never gets old.

And then I'm with You and we talk and I cry plenty, speechless by You... I'm a child again! we laugh some, i play, dance and jump... You bring out the best in me! This is love! Your unlimited patience, Your humility, Your goodness, Your sacrifice, Your love! it doesn't hurt You to keep doing the same thing over and over again... watching over all, faithful to Your word and to every one who calls upon Your name... You cover them with light and so the "failure" of darkness cannot withstand them! they have triumphed in You! 
There is no spirit, creature, image that compares to You... 
Oh and the way You sit on Your throne! You are magnificent, eternally wonderful! You are King!

I saw the way Solomon built that temple for You with all his heart and might... everything laced in gold and other precious things... he knew You wouldnt dwell in it, because the eavens cannot even contain You. But he built it so everyone who prays looking towards the temple will be heard by yYou...and then You quickly reminded me that "in Christ, I'm being built to become a temple where God can live by His Spirit" and so I praised You in mysteries and also in tears! Everyday, Jesus is continually, committedly working on me, Your house, He's making me beautiful and precious so You can reside comfortably in all Your power and glory... What love is this?

Father, someone said to me last night, there's a calm about you, that impresses on everyone who comes around you. It's You Lord, it's You in me, it's Your home, You make Your home beautiful... I am honored to have You dwell in me, I am eternally grateful... words are not enough, even my tears won't give a bucketful! Oh but look into my heart and know for a truth... I'm so in love with YOU!

May Your love through me be continually expressed... may all men see and glory in my Father in heaven. I commit to You Lord, I am forever Yours. It s You and not me. You consume my thoughts, my words and actions will continually be of You and Your leading. I surrender completely and totally to You Father God! 

I love You... Pee.

My New World

Sweet scents of flowers crammed the air
Atmosphere electrified with harmonious songs
All sourced from the splendor of my field
Where everything obeys my every command
Yes my field, my abode
Endowed with awesome tranquility
Yet dripping with fearsome potency
And I ask myself-
Could anything be better than this?

From far-off a faint voice conveyed by the winds
Surely belonging to a queen from a fairy tale
Or certainly a goddess from a greek myth
Her grace surpassed those I had ever seen
Her voice was like lullaby-
From a faraway dream.
But why?
Why would this alien invade my fortitude?
But how could I resist?
Despite my valor I succumbed
And I fell under her spell
I sank into oblivion-
I was slowly transformed -Bryant.

I awoke in a faraway land
Where everything was different
The whooshing voices of the trees
The rustling of leaves
The freedom of insects zooming around
Nothing in this world was bounded by rules
And everyday was like paradise
Superior to everything I was used to
And in sincerity I prayed that it never ended
But nothing good lasts forever; this was a basic rule
Or could this be an exception?
But then my thots began to materialize
And slowly the world around me began to wither
Till I was left alone on an empty plane.

Days and nights passed
And emptiness and loneliness enveloped me.
As I stared at the endless horizon
I began to lament.
But this shouldn't be;
The lamentations of valiant man should never be heard
Nor should the insects of the air
Gossip amongst themselves
Their sightings of my tears,
The hills should never hear
The whispers of the trees
Conveying words of my agony,
But still I cried out in reckless abandon.
Could this be love?
Had my heart withered with that strange word?
Certainly this had to be love.
I had adhered to its awesome power
But never acknowledged it.
This had to be love.

With my concluding thots
And my tear stained eyes
The world started reappearing
And when it was fully reformed
With smiles I began to understand
Love can penetrate anyone
It mus never be doubted else it goes away
Distance cannot hinder love
When it comes, you're going down
You are nobody till you love and someone loves you in return.
And above all
I could only be Bryant in this new world -rèma

I love you.

Mr Brown Eyes

It couldn't be that I am falling in love for the first time
But something about this love you see...
Cliché you think?
No, not this time

It's like I'm under the influence of old wine
Fiiiine old wine
And when I say "I love you"
I mean it this time
A broken record you think?
But not this time

This time I have found forever...

It's in your eyes
And the way you look at me
-you capture my soul-
Oh let our gaze tell the rest of the story

It's in your voice
And the way you ring out in that laugh
-lol, you know how it gets to me-
Oh let me be selfish with that melody please?

It's in the little things
That have somehow added up to make the whole of our existence seem worthwhile
You, me, and the day #WeFoundUs

Oh let my forever remain in your eyes
As you ring out that beautiful melody
And you sing me that sweet harmony

And while I wait till you 'ring' it

I want to keep my new found song ringing in your heart...

"I love you Mr. Brown eyes
Oh beautiful brown eyes"



18:47

16.03.12

When will she be gone 
When will I breathe air that won't reek of bondage
When will I sway to the rhythm of freedom
When will I kiss the lips of the rose of scarlet
When will I carass the silk of my lovers bed
And gestate in the comfort that his presence brings
When will she be gone
When will I call out another name
And dance in the robe of eve
When will she be gone
So she can take her tongue that barks
Her lips that sting
And the number will be barely nine 

When you'd be gone
I hope you carry your band with you
Your silver and gold too
And ease the tension that looms in your presence

16.03.12

I hope I can find myself in the absence of you 

Because she came and went with all her glory
No it was the mistaken adjective, or was it fame?
Maybe temporarily so
But it fades, it's perishable
Rather have something to hold on to
Something that will transcend to grace 

So this absence should be my presence
If each day I'll pick a pen and paper
And jot down everything that makes me who I really am

The Good-bye Tale Lovers Tell (the break-up series)

With every depth savored in u
An eternity was shared

There have been too much
Too much a time, too much a mile
Too much a dime, too much a smile
Indeed there has been too many a string
Pulled together n two lives blend into one
Two bodies yet it feels lyk one.
Now, if I should be the one to tell this tale
I apologize for the script will b re-written
Because I'd stand at the opposite end
From whence we were drawn
And I'll wonder to myself
"How can ths perfect whole be torn into part?"

080109thursday4:38pm

An Old Song (the break-up series)

Sorrow sows to the heart of bitterness
Since time has been unable to heal the pain
And my life I now watch from behind the screen
With teary eyes revealing my agony.

Sorrow's hurt has bore in me a hole
Where once I was whole
Yes, two making one whole
Oh how sweet my song was then...
Love's song it was
When with stary eyes each night I sang
Knowing my lovers ears could only but listen to this beautiful melody of mine
Yes love's song
But indeed, then I was whole
Now the hole I posses only deepens with each passing day.

Would time ever heal this pain,
Will I ever truly be able to love again?

Oh the song of love
Sweet indeed was its melody
Now, sorrow sows to the heart of bitterness
And I'm just an old lonely soul.

110809tuesday3pm

20.01.10 ~09:15 (the break up series lol)

A silohuette, a frame
Just anything to remember ths name.
You'r telling me I once loved u,
Y then do I have to wondr if its true?
Have days passed, or mayb months
Or has it been years, or mayb even a decade?
Bcs I truly cnt put a name
Or a face to ths empty claim.
We shared a vow?
Seriosly? I must have the Mad-cow.
I want to believe, really
Cuz u sound so convincing its silly
Since my heart has tagged u a stranger.
I promise to try
I'm not sure why
But I'l try to remember
What reel (of my lyf u'r on)
Or y my heart has 4gotten u for real.